my colleague of two years just left me... tender is coming out in two weeks.. please just kill me. i feel down.. that after these two years, and all those projects, it has come to this. she's moving on.. im sure she will do great, better out there. people really do just come and go huh... what really keeps them inside your heart and alive? it is all about the effort right? the effort you take to communicate, to joke or laugh, to listen, to meet up, to share life's experiences with. i havent been putting much effort into life itself for the past year i guess.. does that mean im taking everything for granted? i dont believe that i am... but somehow.. when i lose something in life, deep inside, i feel like im partially responsible for it. i could have done better to keep it alive, i could have done this, done that.. but really.. is it under my control..? i know im rambling.. but i havent rambled to anyone for no reason for a long time.. i dont want to waste your time.. goodbye my dear colleague... now i have one less person to talk to in office... sigh.. the good ones always go first.. | 
